First Day Of School Tomorrow!

Hey tomorrow is my first day of school after my gap year, which is almost a year and a half after my last class! So I feel a little weird... By the way, check out the cute picture I posted just for you ^^

Loneliness

It's not fair that my bf has to choose between being with me or with his friends.... I know that college is once in a lifetime and I should be happy for him and stuff.... But it hurts though... Cuz lately he has been busy...seeing friends! >.< so it's like, idk, he's not even busy studying *criez* And since I am going back to school, I won't even be able to see him as muc, considering I'll have to go to bed pretty early...

I know he cares about me, he sent me this really cute card for our 2 year anniversary >.< but I wish I was there for real >.< it sucks >.< well of course it doesnt suck as much as being single! lol so I guess I should just hang in there until I can actually move to the US and live with him! It seems so far away... Maybe now I am dreaming about it, and in the meantime bad things will happen and I will think I was silly to wanna be in the future... Like, maybe I will fail at my test again, maybe my mom will die (I hope not >.<) or maybe idk what will happen... But for now, I wanna believe that everything will be ok, and that we will be happy and our families will be around ^^

Well that was the thought of the day lol.

Oh, btw, honey if you read this! I know how things will happen! If we get married I can apply for citizenship, then we will be bothered for 4 or 5 years by random inspections... then after that they'll leave us alone! and i think i can have double citizenship or sth ^^

so no need to worry about that ^^o! WOOT! ^^o! and maybe you can do that same idk ^^o i'll investigate the matter!

errrm...

Well, so I tried to make a counter for this page, but it is not working, idk why. o.o

New Skin!

hey guys! I edited my blog! I chose the "precious moments" skin from www.blogskins.com and edited it a bit.
do you like it? or do you like the blue and sand skin from blogger better? ^^ let me know!

talking about passion...

talking about passion, (I love you Joel! ^^ *cuddles*) well take me for example.... how am i supposed to know what passion feels like? i am 22 and still a virgin, got my first boyfriend at 20 and my first kiss at 21... so i compared to what i saw on TV! that was a mistake! for instance, i didnt realize a certain number of things were great the way they were, until i asked my friends, or didnt have these things anymore! most of the time, things are better in your memories because u remember AND miss them! but really they ARE great the way they are ^^o! if u just take time to enjoy them ^.^
*throws pillow at joel* teehee! i win ^^o!

what do you guys think passion is?
i used to think u had to BE HOT to have the right to have a passionate affair with someone. thank you TV for making me think so until i was 20 or so. of course, as a teen i didnt think i was hot, so i thought passion would only be for others, not for me. i was wrong. lol
well it's true that u dont always feel that way, sometimes u just feel normal, so the "omg im about to faint" feeling doesnt remain as strong ALL the time! but like... it's ok ^^ it's one of the phases of love i guess ^^ like at first u faint everytime they look at you. then comes the time when u start dating, and then again, u faint everytime they say "i love you". i remember i asked my bf to repeat it a couple of times because it felt so good to hear somebody tell u that at last! lol
then comes the time when you dont feel that way anymore in your daily life, because it has stopped being new!!!!! but you still feel good when they kiss you ^^ sometimes they kiss you just the right way and u feel like u wanna faint ^.^

ok joel take notes: if u want me to faint, turn ur head just a little to the right, yeah that's right, then grab me and kiss meeeeee ^^o! *dies* EXACTLY! u got it babe! lol XD

well seriously... it's ok not to feel like ur fainting all the time lol... it's good to be able to stand up sometimes LOL but! you can still feel that way ^^ just let them know what u want ^^o! or tell them to surprise you or sth! ^^ OK????? *shake shake slap slap* OK??? TELL THEM! I'LL BE WATCHING YOU AND IF YOU DON'T.... you'll regret it ^.^

(end of the article) XD

passion

hey guys! i was just reading this blog about this girl who doesnt seem to believe in passion, you can check it out here.
well here is what she said in her post:

Saturday, October 29, 2005

Passion

Passion. One of my favorite words in the English language. It's often confused with love...But I think passion is different. It's an element of love.

Of course, I also believe the the definition changes from person to person......

For me passion is a unquenchable desire for something or someone. You either have it or you don't. It's strong and undeniable. And once you've felt it; you'll never want to let it go.

Often the word passion is used in the lovely phrase we made hot passionate love. Why is it always said that way?

I just always have the snag on the passionate part.

There would have to be a yearning...Perhaps these lovers have never experienced each other before...Perhaps they're just new to their feelings for each other. When they finally decide to express their love on a physical level....That would define hot passionate love, to me at least.

Never had it. Just been nameless, faceless, joyless....Just numb. And yet, there's still that bleak realization that the only person I could ever feel anything close to love/passion/unconditional surrender with....I could most likely never posses.

How dreadful. Love. Passion. It can really mix up your thinking....

Why can't it be easier....My cat shows me she loves me by bringing me dead mice....Right in front of my door, so it will grab my attention.

Hmm, maybe Naomi has the right idea......

posted by Nicole Wallace @ 7:25 AM

and here is what i replied:

Well, i think maybe you missed the point.... Like... have you ever felt like you were going to faint when you are close to the one you love? kind alike the feeling you have when you love them but you don't know yet if they love you too? and also, this feeling like u wanna jump on them lol

I guess that would be passion ^^

before, i thought those feelings had to be much stronger, u know, the way you feel and stuff, according to what people say about it. but then i talked to friends and had them describe their exact feelings cuz i thought i didnt feel like everybody else, but much worse (disappointment when i compared to what others said). and you will never guess what XD i found out that i felt as good as what other ppl say! so maybe you're a bit too hard on yourself/the way u feel

maybe you should just enjoy ^^ otherwise you might end up getting bored/disappointed and wasting the chance u have to live a real love+passion


do u think i missed the point?
well idk i learned not to compare with others too much... they feel a certain way, we feel about the same way, just not expressed with the same words! i think if you compare, u'll end up thinking the grass is greener for your neighbor.

am i fat????

we bought an exercice bike the other day... first time i try it on, i ask it to calculate my body fat... it finds i am composed of 30% of fat! O.O what is that supposed to mean?
So i look up stuff about the body fat rate on the internet and i see the average girl is made of 18-22% of fat! so i panic like omg i am obese XD then i read some more, and other sites say a girl is made of 27% of fat average! so i am like ok.... then on another site they ranked it.
athletes, this to that, fitness 18-24 or so, acceptable 25-31, obese 32% so i am 2% from being obese XD so i am "acceptable" HUH? O.O *throws chocolate bars away* XD
*exercises on der bike* yeah so if i exercise a bit i'll get fit and kick that bike's ass cuz it'll find i only got 18% of fat! go meeee ^0^
ok i gotta go eat breakfast no cuz i got up late XD yum chocolate *drools* XD lol :P

SCHOOL!

Today I finally went to get my schedule at the University office... But guess what? XD i had forgotten what subjects I don't have to take!!! XD So eventually I'll have to go back with the schedule I chose on the list on Monday, and go to my first class on Monday too... Can you believe I'll only have 10 hours of class per week? Although it's a bit far and all 50 minutes or so. But I mean classes started a month ago!!!! >.< well, 10 hours a week times 4 is like I missed 2 normal weeks, so I guess it's doable! ^^
So yeah, first Spanish class on Monday! I don't know if I should be happy or bored XD <.< *enjoys her last free weekend!* XD

español

Today I had an opporunity to practice Spanish, which is pretty rare for me... I know I should practice more, but it's a little difficult since I don't have many Spanish-speaking friends, and I am BUSY, and so are they! lol XD so yeah XD another boring post. I'll try not to be as boring next time!

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test

i just cant stand ppl who leave stupid messages with links to breast enhancement pages and such. if this goes on i'll just disable comments, but then it's bad cuz i cant see what REAL ppl think!!!!!!

errrr <.<

I just read an article on Salon.com, which says this:

"Across the globe, it's the same story. In France, DSL service that is 10 times faster than the typical United States connection; 100 TV channels and unlimited telephone service cost only $38 per month."

I guess they are referring to Free.fr. Well, it is only theoretical, and I disagree. In France we have a lot of ISP problems! And after what I have heard about America, you guys have less problems! So if you need 20 megs to just load ur email, then envy France, but honestly (unless u download illegal stuff <.<) our ISP's suck ass. So I was just letting my voice be heard since I couldn't say anything on the Salon.com site in response to that article!

PS: You might wanna check this image, it's funny!

I just found a very interesting article about the British political system: here.

why wont it refresh faster XD i always feel like i have to type my posts again cz they dont show up XD

^^

^^o!
today i started doing articles with my mom to improve my memory. It's still a little hard but oh well XD
anyway I am still looking for info about ur countries XD but yeah i kno wi should go to wikipedia etc and look stuff up, which i will do but not right now cuz i am busy! ^^;

Inside Europe: Iberian Notes

Inside Europe: Iberian Notes

My Second Post

grrrr I just wrote a whole thing and it didnt post XD

Basically I wanna know what is going on in English and Spanish speaking countries (political and social matters mainly) I am interested but idk where to start so yeah if u guys have good books or blogs or newspapers of other stuff i can read, please post links/references! thanks!

My First Post

Hey guys!

I don't really know where to start. I was told that a good way of knowing ppl's opinions is to read their blogs. I mean "opinion" as in what is really going on in a foreign country for example. So yea I mean if you guys wanna let me know what's up in Spanish or English speaking countries go ahead I wanna know all about it! Cuz I tried looking up "blogs en español" but i got a lot of stuff and dunno where to start with it, seems like mainly personal blogs XD I kinda wanna know what's up with, for instance, politics or society problems.

Well I am just curious so post ahead and if u got good books i can read or references (newspapers etc) post on thanks!