Loneliness

It's not fair that my bf has to choose between being with me or with his friends.... I know that college is once in a lifetime and I should be happy for him and stuff.... But it hurts though... Cuz lately he has been busy...seeing friends! >.< so it's like, idk, he's not even busy studying *criez* And since I am going back to school, I won't even be able to see him as muc, considering I'll have to go to bed pretty early...

I know he cares about me, he sent me this really cute card for our 2 year anniversary >.< but I wish I was there for real >.< it sucks >.< well of course it doesnt suck as much as being single! lol so I guess I should just hang in there until I can actually move to the US and live with him! It seems so far away... Maybe now I am dreaming about it, and in the meantime bad things will happen and I will think I was silly to wanna be in the future... Like, maybe I will fail at my test again, maybe my mom will die (I hope not >.<) or maybe idk what will happen... But for now, I wanna believe that everything will be ok, and that we will be happy and our families will be around ^^

Well that was the thought of the day lol.

Oh, btw, honey if you read this! I know how things will happen! If we get married I can apply for citizenship, then we will be bothered for 4 or 5 years by random inspections... then after that they'll leave us alone! and i think i can have double citizenship or sth ^^

so no need to worry about that ^^o! WOOT! ^^o! and maybe you can do that same idk ^^o i'll investigate the matter!